last weekend

Still in no mood for studying and I haven't even looked at the EKG-thing we're doing tomorrow but I've had coffee with a friend, looked after C's cats and talked to Jessica by skype since I don't have any batteries left on my cell. We planned a trip for me to London in late march and I don't really got the money but I just have to go. With a booked flight I just know that my energy will come back.

I'm off to Sthlm tomorrow, we're going out with some people in my class and I'm worried I really gonna need a plan B to be able to flee because there are some serious freaky elements that are joining us. I'm not even sure I wanna be seen out on the street with some of them but wtf, maybe it'll be nice. We're going to this electro club and it sounds promising but it'll be hard to beat last weekend.

Last friday I first met a lot of nice people on a party, got wasted on some amsterdam-shit so Sebastian had to follow me home and then on saturday I was at Tech-Noir in my amazing pink lashes and met this cute english guy who turned out to be a member of Sisters of Mercy. We went to an after-party and I had a really good time but it's a fucking shame that the only real good-looking man you meet is a damn rock-star that you really can't do anything with if you don't wanna feel like a groupie.

back for a while

I guess I'm back for a while. So fucking sick of school that the only thing I've done this week is staying up far too late and falling asleep in school. I'm sick of U-town but love my room more and more. It's the place to be if you have to be here and with my pink bed-wall, new table and lovely scented candle from muji it's soo nice.

But I just can't motivate myself to study or even care about school right now and since I've got next exam in march there isn't really anything to push me either. I just don't wanna be here in this boring town wasting my life away looking at histology pics of respiratory organs. I'm dying of boredom...

J is more or less out of my head now and I now feel entirely good about the fact that his so far away I never will see him again. Hopefully I'll have enough money to go to London during spring-break and for once just focus on having a good time dancing my ass and head off. And I think I've decided to go there this summer, I have to go away and do some nice things that have nothing to do with school or anything here.

Don't know when I'll write here next time. I need it in a way but most of the time I'm just to busy to take care of my head and even if I know I have to I just can't find the time and peace.

pause

It's an good year so far. I really am more creative nowadays and I have much more fun. What I haven't had is time to write here but be patient, it's been less than a month and I'm still adjusting to my new life. I'll be back eventually and then I hope it's good.

Until then I'll listen to this:



...and watch this:

more creative

I'm at work and soon I'll be out on the Island but first I have to leave the keys in our old apartment (ooouuuääää) and sit on the bus for an hour (zzz).

Had a really slow night yesterday but still overslept (fucketifuck) and I have a cold and feel really tired but I'm also kind of happy.
Been reading a lot of ***** and other things today (have been a slow day) and I got some inspiration. I'll try to make my **** a little bit more interesting too, not only whine about being sad or empty.

I don't like to promise things on new year but I try to be much more creative in 2008 and really take some time off the boring school and just reinvent me and myself. I'll try to be even more of a fuck-up this year but a damn happy one with a lot of colours all over.